Love

I wish I did not live this day. I so badly want to kill myself and end this torture that I am going through. The worst part is that I have to live. If not for me, then for the people who need me and the commitments that I have. I' ll take it as long as I can. When I cross the line of tolerance I'll give up. I am just a simple girl with a human heart.
About a year ago I met this Prince Charming. I fell in love with him at first sight. I was so lost in love that I, unlike me, stopped making decisions with my brain. The heart took over and made some bad decisions. Well the consequesnces of those decisions did not stab me until two days back. I came to know that the new junior I was trying to help get settled in the University was none other than the girl who would be the love of my only love.
Ever since she came into my life, reality has struck me hard. I am all broken. I have no confidence in myself. No hope for life. I have not stopped crying since I knew about their relation. My heart made the mistake but my brain is suffering too. I do not believe that I can make it big in life. The very thought of this new girl living her life with him kills me.
He will no longer wait to talk to me. If at all we bump into each other, he would not want to look at me. His love story would not have me in it. Why did this happen to me?
I never ever had a boyfriend before him. I thought he was my man. The one with whom I will live all my life and then die as his wife. I never thought twice about not having any limits with him. I loved him and his family. I made him a part of every little decision I made, every little incident that happened in my life. Cooking for him, singing for him, listening to him singing for me, waiting for hours for his call, and lot more lil things made me happier than the rest of the world.
But it is all over. I have to understand that this guy was just holding on to me till he finds someone else. Now that he has, he has ruthlessly stepped on my heart and walked out of this relation. I wish he relaizes what he has done. I wish he understands that he is not a man. I wish I realize that I do not need such a wimp in my life. I deserve someone better.